28 days of me

Day 4

Mindfulness vs Blogging

Monday, May 4th, 2015
Show today's brain activity
Alpha 47%
Waves which occur when relaxed and calm
Beta 37%
Waves which occur when, for example, actively thinking or problem-solving
Gamma 16%
Waves which occur when involved in higher mental activity and consolidation of information

I’ve hit a wall. There’s an inherent contradiction with becoming more mindful, and writing and maintaining a daily blog. This only dawned on me today as I have noticed how grumpy and frustrated I am getting by this process.

“I feel that the work involved with daily blogging is hindering my progress to becoming more ‘mindful’.”

I can feel some anxiety creeping in when preparing and writing each day’s blog post, when the whole idea of this particular experiment is to pull back from the busyness and pace of ‘normal’ life to become more mindful and calm.  I think this ‘busyness’ is something we all face – we live on computers, we have smart phones, chat programs, email, texts, WhatsApp, Skype, Facetime, (the list is endless) all of these things get in the way of creating a calmer and more focused mind.

My aim for 28 Days of Meditation is to be more present, and more aware of how I am feeling in the moment. However, right now I am distracted by all the peripheral stuff that is involved with this blog – technical issues with the headset, collecting the data, site update issues and social media. With all this going on, it’s more of a struggle than I had anticipated to focus on the meditation and be mindful throughout my day.

For the first time since starting 28daysof.me I am considering if I continue with this experiment in this way – perhaps daily blog posting just isn’t a good set up for a meditation experiment.

Today’s Brainwave Activity

brainwave graph

Blue = alpha waves, 47% (Day 1 was 43%) — this is the one I’m trying to increase.
Yellow = beta waves, 37% (Day 1 was 34%)
Pink = gamma waves, 16% (Day 1 was 19%)

Today’s Meditation

Today I did another 15 minute Headspace meditation. My alpha waves were higher than yesterday, so that is good. I didn’t realise how tired I was until I was getting the tired ‘noddies’ during my meditation.